Yesterday my parents went to France for a holiday (great for
them). I was meant to go with them but last week I randomly looked at my
passport and found that it was out of date !! :( now although I was upset due
the fact that I wanted to go I was not traumatized I thought that it might be a
good opportunity for me to catch up with some work and watch some of the things
that I like to watch, no the traumatizing factor came in last night
when I was home alone.
Now I am at university and live in halls so obviously I
felt that I would be fine, although there were a few factors that I did not
account for such as we have recently moved house so I do not know the house
very well especially as I have only been living in it for a week, I also do not
know the neighbours at all, while I am sure that they are lovely people
it did not reassure me at all, another large factor that was
not consider was that while yes I do live away from home at
university, there are always people around (a whole building full of them)
there is also a reception area where you can always find security who will come
at any time that they are called (which for me has been never thankfully).
Therefore being in a new house with only the dog for company (even though he
was no help at all and just sat by the door waiting for my mum and dad to come
home) was a little scary.
I like to think that I weathered the storm well taking up some of
my time by watching YouTube videos (especially Zoella and
Sprinkleofglitter) and making a wish list of new things that I want also
convincing myself to finally make the push and pay out for a mac foundation. I found
that keeping the radio and many of the lights on helped as well as making sure
the curtains were shut and all doors locked. Logically I knew nothing was going
to happen but that did not stop my brain from creating up all types of situations.
Next time I will be able to be a lot more rational and level headed
about the situation, this was a first for me alone in this new house and like
many firsts it was scary but doing something for the first time however big or
small will be scary as you would have never done it before, for you to be able
to overcome the fear you must first do the thing that scares you, so I want you
to ask yourself what scares you? And what can you do to overcome that fear?
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